i’ve been evaluating my place in the blogosphere + social media world. thinking long and hard about how i’m showing up. what i have to offer. why i even do what i do. over the past several months, i’ve taken a step back to assess what i wish to accomplish with these social channels, if anything. there were moments when i thought i should delete everything and move on with my life anonymously… or perhaps reveal myself in another light.
while this isn’t a ‘i’m quitting my blog’ statement, it is a pledge to you that i’m done masquerading behind the masks and identities as a healthy living blogger, runner, marketing manager, adventurer and whatever else society says i am. yes, those descriptions are still used in my blog + social handles but those are things i like doing; they’re not who i am.
i have deleted almost everything from my blog because it no longer felt authentic to me. i have so much appreciation for where i’ve been and who i was. but where i was isn’t where i’m going and who i was is no longer in alignment with me.
life is about becoming more of who you really are.
i want to share my life with you in a different, more meaningful way. i’m confident you’ve already noticed the shift in my voice on instagram. i’m interested in talking about the human experience – shit that actually matters. connecting with hearts. i’m here to be a friend and faithful to companion to others on their personal journeys. i have lost followers and blog readers, but that’s okay. i don’t have much to offer in terms of practical ‘healthy living advice’ – what so many people *think* they’re thirsty for. i want to be soul food; not eye candy. green smoothies and soul cycle don’t fix anything – you do.
when i ask close friends what their perception of me is, they describe me as funny, inspiring, courageous, fit, dedicated and pretty. “that infectious laugh of yours!” they say.
allow me to introduce myself again.
i am joanna.
i am a simple quantum living kind of girl with wild, messy blonde hair and a sense of wonder. i see myself in everyone i meet.
i thrive on intelligent conversations with substance and deep connections. i am a woman who allows my desires to illuminate my path, while intuition leads the way. i don’t fight for what i want and instead, surrender to the delicious unfolding of it.
i live life to the fullest. always and ever expanding. i understand i’m the creator of my own reality and life experience. i’m deeply passionate about connecting with my inner being. i appreciate the things around me and everything that’s coming. my life experience has been filled with beautiful contrasts that have deepened my understanding and appreciation for what is wanted. i am never going to complete everything and experience it all, because in doing so, i’d be trying to stop the universal forces of expansion. and that’s not possible.
fear is the contrast to love. i used to be afraid of my voice, my intuition, the depth of my emotions, my own power. i felt ashamed for wanting more. i doubted my greatness, wisdom, my deep knowing. i have turned away from love many times and held myself in bondage over stories of unworthiness and shame. i have used stories from the past to ‘tell it like it is’ and unknowingly limited myself.
i’ve given up the struggle and surrendered to the flow of life. i no longer try to make anything happen. i get to be, do and have anything i want. i choose love, wholeness, expansion and joy.
i love moving my body in ways that make me feel even more alive; more “me”. i enjoy the sensation of mind-body-spirit synergy. plugging into life. exercise and healthy eating were once catalysts into the world of wellness and spirituality. they taught me the art of awareness and mindfulness, but i’ve learned healthy living is about what we’re thinking + feeling and has very little to do with what we’re eating or how we’re moving.
i am fascinated by the fact that we are fields of energy existing in other fields of energy. how we exist on an atomic and sub atomic level. how our thoughts and emotions change our energetic frequency that draw similar energy and experiences to us. how nothing is a coincidence, and only an invitation.
we get to be, do and have anything we want. isn’t that wonderful? this space has become a platform to discuss big ideas. to bridge the gap between spirituality + science. to co-create with source energy and the people around us. to write and re-write our life scripts. to merge spirit with our human-ness. to de-mystify the mystical. to help each other remember what we already know. to be our own guru and learn to listen to our wisdom and tune out the confusing noise of the world. we are caught up in an illusion of doing instead of being. we don’t have to micro manage our lives. it’s not our job to make things happen. it’s our responsibility to get ourselves into alignment with what we want and allow it. i’m here to help you remember. we don’t have to suffer before life can become great.
remember when this used to be my classic ‘from where i run pose’?! took one for old times sake while running this week. 😀
to my old faithful readers: thank you for being part of my blogging journey. although i still consider this a wellness blog, it’s not going to be about superficial shit anymore. i’m sorry if i ever made you think that the key to happiness and healthy living meant eating foods you didn’t actually like because they were “healthy”. that whole30 is a good idea, or endurance running is something we should aspire to do. my wish for you is to only do stuff you genuinely want to do. to get so clear on what you want. this is the shit that lights a fire inside of me and what we should actually be discussing.
thank you for allowing me to share my journey with you!
all my love,